We accept the love we think we deserve. I thought I deserved yours.
Yes, I made mistakes. But so did you. Yes, we fought. But we always came back to each other. Yes, people tried to come in between us. But we never let them.
So why was it so easy to say that it was over? You might say that it wasn't easy and I do believe that this hurts you as much as it hurts me but if it did, you would have thought about it a hundred times before you said that. Before you blamed me for it ending this way. All I did was try and help you. I told you a million times how I loved you and didn't want to lose you but you didn't say those words back every time I did. I would beg to get you back. You want to know why? Because you mean the world. We've been through so much and we've been more than best friends for so long. We've been sisters for so many years and you tell me we're over for no reason. You might say there's a reason but there really isn't. You don't blame someone when they did nothing. Trying to help you doesn't mean that I don't know you. Asking you to try doesn't mean I don't know you. I've been the only person who has known you. You need to understand that even I get angry. Even I get hurt by the things you say. Even I cry and lose sleep and can't eat. Especially because I didn't do anything wrong and I'm getting blamed for it ending like this. You need to stop saying that you can't try and that you won't apologize or beg for our friendship. Because I would beg. I would beg for our friendship because it meant something to me. It means something to me. It's worth something. And it hurts to think that I don't mean anything. Don't say that I do mean something because if I did, you would beg for me, too. You would tell me that I'm worth something the way I tell you that you are.
The words you say hurt, too. And I still repeat the things you said to me in my head.
Yes, I made mistakes. But so did you. Yes, we fought. But we always came back to each other. Yes, people tried to come in between us. But we never let them.
So why was it so easy to say that it was over? You might say that it wasn't easy and I do believe that this hurts you as much as it hurts me but if it did, you would have thought about it a hundred times before you said that. Before you blamed me for it ending this way. All I did was try and help you. I told you a million times how I loved you and didn't want to lose you but you didn't say those words back every time I did. I would beg to get you back. You want to know why? Because you mean the world. We've been through so much and we've been more than best friends for so long. We've been sisters for so many years and you tell me we're over for no reason. You might say there's a reason but there really isn't. You don't blame someone when they did nothing. Trying to help you doesn't mean that I don't know you. Asking you to try doesn't mean I don't know you. I've been the only person who has known you. You need to understand that even I get angry. Even I get hurt by the things you say. Even I cry and lose sleep and can't eat. Especially because I didn't do anything wrong and I'm getting blamed for it ending like this. You need to stop saying that you can't try and that you won't apologize or beg for our friendship. Because I would beg. I would beg for our friendship because it meant something to me. It means something to me. It's worth something. And it hurts to think that I don't mean anything. Don't say that I do mean something because if I did, you would beg for me, too. You would tell me that I'm worth something the way I tell you that you are.
The words you say hurt, too. And I still repeat the things you said to me in my head.
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