She is herself.

16th August 2012

The confusion causes pain and weakness. It doesn't hurt that much that i have to keep it a secret. I've kept secrets before. They might be my friends, they might even be my closest friends but I still don't know if it would not bother them or it will cause a ruckus. That isn't why it hurts. It hurts because I was stupid. I was stupid to think she was going to leave us alone. Stupid to believe that she was done playing mind games. Stupid to belive that she'd stay away from the people I love and me. Stupid to not see that he was desprate. Stupid to think I could ever trust anyone but most of all, I feel stupid for actually assuming that this war was over. It is not. It's the beginning of the end. She's caused heart ache, broken friendships, empty promises, lies, back talking, rumors and anyone would be stupid to believe that she actually meant the apology. She can't and will never be sorry because that is who she is. A lying, backstabbing, promise breaking, desperate, attention seeking, heartbrekaing, problem causing loser. She is herself and that is who she is.